I’ve been thinking about writing a blog for a while. I’ve started a few before, but I never lasted more than a few posts. And, I think before now, I never really had a purpose for writing. My life was easy – no real challenges, nothing exciting. And, there’s nothing wrong with that. I loved my boring life. I had things that didn’t go my way, but I never had a critical, life-altering experience. Somehow everything seemed to fit in the plan that I had made for my life: go to college, meet a boy, fall in love, get married, and start a family.
My life changed on March 16th, 2012 when I found out my baby no longer had a heartbeat. I was exactly 1 week past my due date, and in an instant, the baby I had looked forward to meeting for 9 months was gone. At that moment, heart-wrenching grief entered my life. I have spent the last 7 months getting used to my new and constant companion, and today, it’s time for a new beginning. This grief will always be with me and will always be a part of me because I will always love and miss my beautiful daughter. But, it’s time for me to stop living as one who is defeated because I serve a God who makes all things new.