All day on Facebook, I’ve seen posts of people re-capping their year and talking about vacations they’ve taken and all the great things that have happened in their lives.
2012 has been the worst year of my life, but I had Hannah, and becoming a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Having a family of my own is the only thing I’ve ever really wanted, but it definitely doesn’t look the way I thought it would. Part of me is sad to leave this year behind because I’ll have to say that Hannah died last year. How can it already be a year?
I’m excited for 2013 and to meet my sweet boy. I’m praying that my experience as Noah’s mom will be much different than my experience of being Hannah’s mom, but I’m terrified that this year and next year will be a lot alike. I hope that I continue to grow in my walk with God. He has sustained me in ways that I never thought possible.
So in the last few hours of 2012, I am sad to move onto a new year without Hannah but hopeful for 2013.